but the truth is I'm not that strong [evening]

[ROGUE ღ]

Boy it's been all this time
And I can't get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me
I stare at your photograph

Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me
Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I've prayed for you to say

Eveningfire

the early part of night

female
17 moons
BrightClan
paintingportraitsofghosts

I should of been chasing you
I should of been trying to prove
That you were all
That mattered to me

I should of said all the things
That I kept inside of me
Maybe I could of made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need

Fire. One word to describe how this female looks. Her whole pelt is a beautiful semi-length charcoal black colour now that the fire had gone away and she has had time to replenish it. Her paws are a bright charcoal black and a smaller size then usual, 3 of her small paws are charcoal black while the front left paw is a burning sun ginger. Her legs would be a beautiful site to see with muscles but her thin charcoal black legs are still recovering from the happenings of her life, some ginger patches stood out against the dark golden like colour. If it weren't for her semi-long fur you would be able to see many scars and still a thin stomach. Her body was another frightful site before it changed, especially since it was more visible to others then the rest of her body.

Her body is still thin like her legs, you can still see some of her spine and some of her ribs that covered her semi-full stomach. If you could take a razor and shave away her pretty pelt dull green and and ugly yellow marks would show brightly against her skin, the marks that the flaming fire gave her, the marks that were disappearing. Her pelt is a beautiful glossy black with sunny ginger patches, still some places are dull and un-kept, the small pits of fur that had always been torn out were growing back but they were still shorter then her regular fur length. Her tail is a site to see, it's a glossy charcoal black with sunny ginger patches. Her head would be the exact copy of her beautiful brothers but the monster in the nursery that everyone said loved her kept her from that. Her face is thin with glossy charcoal black with small flaming ginger patches, most of it on her right cheek.

Her nose is a bright ginger with flecks of charcoal black, her whiskers are a dull silver, while her ears are charcoal black with ginger flecks. The most sad part of her body is her eyes. The beauty of them didn't replenish like her body did, they are like the ghosts of her memories that she tried to forget. Her scorching golden orbs reached all around the irises with a faded brown ring halfway out. Anyone that knows her doesn't really look directly into her eyes for they can see her self-consciousness fighting against itself.

My friends think I'm moving on
But the truth is I'm not that strong
And nobody knows it but me
I kept all the words you said

In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me
But if your happy I'll get through somehow
But the truth is that I've been screaming out

Burning. The most hated feeling she ever had. And it was all because of the neglecting monster and the merciless fire. Even though the raining fire died she could still feel the flames lick her skin every time someone touched her. She would be in absolute fright and dive deep into paranoia. She was unsettled easily, her emotions kept her alert and nervous, they always brought her either into a fit or wondering around talking to herself. Even though she didn't really try to hide them, her emotions always showed in her eyes, under all the horrid things others saw her emotions could be found and seen. Her need to cling to others has faded away along with the evil, but it brought her into being very nervous, her eyes always darting around her surroundings and making her jump at every male voice.

Her silence hasn't improved much since the fire died, she still keeps things inside of her and doesn't speak much, some still think that she's mute but when she speaks her voice sounds as if she were sighing softly. Her reserved manner keeps her from speaking to many other cats, she won't tell you what's wrong with her until she feels like telling you, she won't even stand up for herself. Even though she can be an emotional wreck she is still very sweet and can be really nice and helpful to someone, her heart sets onto one thing when she sees love and caring families. Never has she been jealous except for Venomstrike, the she-cat that mothered Alderthorn's kits, she can take the she-cat by herself but she won't talk to her while her two kits were around. Other-wise this female can be a very good friend.

I should of been chasing you
I should of been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should of said all the things

That I kept inside of me
And maybe I could of made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need
It was all we'd ever need

Before she was born with 4 other siblings her mother gave birth to a litter of three, they had runaway to EclipseClan, when she was born she knew why. Every time either her siblings or herself tried for their mothers milk they would either get hit, pushed away, or ignored.

As she got older she learned that anyone that went near them were punished with a hard paw. And anyone you tried to tell about the beatings and neglecting were threatened. She became very frightened by this and was assumed mute for she was deathly afraid to talk. Eveningpaw had looked up at her dad as a drunken man that was clear in the head and her mother as the love-sick teenager. She started to hate them both with the firy pits of hell that made they had made of her soul, in fact she started to hate everything. Some say her heart was frozen because of her parents, but it wasn't, her heart and mind were on fire and killing her from the inside out.

As an apprentice, the beatings got to a high scale and the neglecting got worse, everytime she was caught up outside the camp and she comes back battered and bruised she wondered if any cared that her parents hit her or her other siblings. A moon into her apprenticeship she looked barely fit to be an apprentice, on a hunting expedition she collapsed because her hunger was driving her mad. Then one day her sister had a plan to run out Raccoonmask and Windystorm, and it involved three siblings from EclipseClan. She began to go with Vinepaw to meet with Raincatcher and Wavedancer, sometimes Tortoiseclaw. She also befriended a male named Alderpaw, she became close to him along with a kit named Destinykit and another female named Venompaw.

Then Vinepaw was noticed and wasn't aloud anywhere without Windystorm, so Eveningpaw went one night in Vinepaw's absence, her brothers and her sister snuck away from the camp. But Windystorm followed and confronted Vinepaw for he didn't see their brothers. Eveningpaw went and found Wavedancer, they both went back to the BrightClan border when the sound of fighting broke out. Eveningpaw watched Windystorm slaughter Alderthorn after he told her to run, before she took off she watched Wavedancer attack Windystorm and that's when Venomstrike came in to see. Eveningpaw ran like the wind back to camp.

A while after that Raincatcher attacked Windystorm in the forest and most of the siblings attacked as well, along with Eveningpaw. Both their father and their brother died, they rejoiced and grieved. That was when Raccoonmask walked in and found her dead mate and flipped out. She ran away with tears running down her cheeks, Eveningpaw never saw her again. They finally told Grainstar what had been going on and they all earned warrior names. She found out later about Venomstrike's kits and who's they were and was furious. But she fell over the anger and decided to stay neutral with the warrioress.

Oh, I thought it was all we'd ever need
I should of been chasing you
You should of been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me

Oh, you should of said all the things
That I kept inside of me
And maybe you could have made me believe
That what we had girl

Raccoonmask -- mother
Windystorm -- father
Raincatcher -- brother
Tumblingwaves --brother
Viperfang -- brother
Vermillionspirit -- brother
Wavedancer -- sister
Tortoiseclaw -- sister
Vinerunner -- sister
Phoenixfeather -- mentor

Oh, that what we had
What we had
It was all we'd ever need
It was all we'd ever need

song : all we'd ever need
artist : lady antebellum

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