|| feels like i'm going insane ;; BEARPAW [cc]

[& Lizz'ard.]

What's wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I'm going crazy now

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bearpaw

No more gas in the rig
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
I'm a light on my head
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeah

x any of the plantigrade, carnivorous or omnivorous mammals of the family Ursidae, having massive bodies, coarse heavy fur, relatively short limbs, and almost rudimentary tails.
x male
x 7 moons
x cloudclan
x apprentice
x picture

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort

[[ Almost like his mother's, Bearpaw's fur is short and thin. It fits over his body quite nicely, snug as a bug in a rug. It is fairly spikey, giving Bearpaw the apperance of either a porcupine or a cactus. Maybe a cross between the two would fit him nicely. At the very tips of his ears, there are small tufts of fur, making it look like his ear is a bit extended. His chest and belly fur is longer than the rest of the his coat. The coloration of his coat makes Bearpaw look like any ordinary tabby cat, when in reality, he isn't like all the other tabbies. His base coat color is brown, with an assortment of colors splashed upon it to give him his own unique look. There is a varieties of browns and tans mixed into the hairs. There is white around her nose, spreading down his chest, and going to his underbelly. His paws are also white. The inside of his legs are a creamy brown color, almost like the white of his paws, but not that close to white. The color mixed into his base coat is an orangish brown, and this color comes in at random places. Black stripes line his body, these he inherited from both his parents, despite his father not having that many stripes upon his body. All his body parts are the right size for his body, with his figure being bulky like Eaglecry's. His tail is fairly short, but that is to be expected from a kit like him. ]]

Put on your green lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

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[[ Known to care only about himself, Bearpaw is a conceited little brat. He does not really worry much about anyone else's well being, unless it means that he gets a reward or something for it. He loves to get into trouble, and loves to try and get others into trouble as well, so it is never uncommon to see him getting in trouble with his mother. And, whenever he is getting in trouble, it seems like it boosts his morale, and he will even get into more trouble just to be satisfied with himself. He is very loyal to his family, however, and would never hurt them intentionally. He may act like he doesn't care about them, but deep down, he worries about them and worries that they will leave him one day. He has a deepened fear of losing those he loves, and sometimes, Bramblepaw makes fun of that. To go along with his bossy behavior, Bearpaw is also loud and obnoxious. Quite like the little seahorse (at the reef) in Finding Nemo. He will make a huge production out of something so small. Be it someone steps on his tail, or if someone betrays him. He is a merciless fighter, never letting up when he is play fighting with his siblings. Though, as he gets older, this may change. ]]

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnectin' phone calls
The phone don't even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this s**t out
It's too close for comfort

[[ The story of Eaglecry and Tawnysky is quite a famous one. Tawnysky was from CloudClan, while her mate, Eaglecry, originated from MoonClan. Tawnysky was having difficult times in her Clan, due to her sister, Dewstep, having a mate and kits of her own. This caused Tawnysky to become quite jealous, and isolate herself from other cats. While she was patroling her Clan's border, she stumbled upon the MoonClan tom. Instead of attacking him, or scaring him off, the two began talking, each learning quite a lot about each other. This was only the beginning to a very forbidden relationship.

Moons passed, and the two met over and over again, trying to be as secretive as possible. It wasn't long before the two warriors confessed their love, and became mates. This secret was very hard to keep, and the two were almost caught a few times. But, they managed to make it. One day, after a checkup with the medicine cat, Tawnysky had the news that she was bearing kits. No one, except her and Eaglecry, knew they were Half-Clan. But, this didn't stop Tawnysky, nor did it stop Eaglecry. Tawnysky gave birth to five kits, two males and three females. (Crisiskit and Bearkit; Mayakit, Periwinklekit, and Bramblekit).

All too soon, Bearkit was to be made into Bearpaw. Fadedstar gave Bearpaw the mentor in the form of Ancientmagic. However, this didn't last long, as the exerpienced warrior died mysteriously. This left Bearpaw mentor-less until Fadedstar can appoint him a new one. At the same time of Ancientmagic's death, news came that his father, Eaglecry, had also passed away mysteriously.]]

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster

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[[ mother;; tawnysky
father;; eaglecry [deceased]
siblings;; mayapaw, perwinklepaw, bramblepaw (sisters), crisispaw (brother)
aunt;; dewstep
cousins;; gannetpaw, septemberpaw, carnationpaw, jadepaw
former mentor;; ancientmagic ]]

Put on your green lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia[/size]

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Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Release me from this curse
I'm trying to remain tame
But I'm struggling
You can't go, go, go
I think I'm going to oh, oh, oh

[[xoxo] SHARD !!]

accepted.

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